I Don't Love You

I love you....these three words get thrown around as if they are on a roller coaster with no safety belt. Do you love me? Do i love you? No longer will i settle for the feeling of an emotion that is constantly played like a Wayne drop on the radio station. I need more than those three words that you've said to those before and if this don't work will say to those after. I'd die for you...see I don't want that Ride or Die mentality when it comes to choosing the one to carry my seed and to allow me to provide all her needs. I want that sun up thinking the same thing I'm thinking when the sun goes down. And if you don't know that one thing I'm thinking about is you and only you. I need you like a baby needs it's mother to nurture my heart and bring peace to my soul. I don't want you to be with me, I want you to be apart of me. You are the air I breathe to provide the life i need. So do I love you??? No, baby I live you. With every beat this old heart of mines makes, the thought of you runs through my mind while the want of you runs through my veins. Is this some sort of drug I'm now on? If it is I want to overdose on you. No intervention, b/c just to hear your name mentioned makes me want just one more hit. You are to me what I've always hoped you'd be. My everything. Do I love you.....Baby what I feel for you can only be described as, I Live You.

Hearts Phone

Thanks a lot for messing up; what would’ve been a good night’s sleep. Because I was surely resting up, until I heard my phone beep. I almost ignored it without a look, b/c surely no one could call me this late. A wrong number it must surely be, I’ll find out on tomorrows date. But something said look, and could it be true. The number that I saw belonged to you. Now what could be wrong, what could’ve happened. For surely its work purposed, for this call to have happen. A clear of the throat and a hello to follow, once I heard your voice, my heart had to be swallowed. Gotta try and sound cool, unphased by it all. But only someone like you could tell I was smiling through a call. She hears it in my voice, no way to play it off. So I’ll say she must be crazy and cover it with a cough. Now my whole world has been flipped, with a simple dial of a phone. I never want to hang up, never again hear that tone. It wasn’t a long call, but long enough for me to wonder. Does she still think about me at night, right before her early slumber? Figured I was a lost thought and dreams of us a thing in the past. But now you have me pondering, could it be my time at last. So thank you for ruining a good sleep b/c now it will be great. Because I was already up going insane, thinking of you till late. If I would’ve ignored that call, the whole night my heart would have raced. Wondering what you were doing, not knowing it was you from whom the call was placed.